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Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 16:54:38 GMT

RAGE HAS MOVED. Sorry I had to switch sites, because I wanted friends and family outside of xanga to be able to comment on my site, so I have changed it. I will, however, keep this one open so that I can still comment to those I know here. Please feel free to check out my new blog at www.theopenrage.blogspot.com Thanks everyone! Who knows, I may be back sooner than I think if this one doesn't work out.

Rachel

Thursday, January 13, 2005

Thu, 13 Jan 2005 20:31:42 GMT

Well, I am still alive. Sorry about the absence, but this week has been pretty busy at work at work is the only time I can go on the internet - and it's obviously limited since my desk is in a rather open area. Ok, so I've been dreaming a lot lately - not like future goals and plans, but sleep dreaming. I had a dream about Keanu Reeves, whom I love! (btw everyone says D looks like Keanu!) so that was nice, but my dumb alarm clock interupted it - BOO! Then I had a dream that D and I were getting married, but we planed the wedding in a day, and it was really a spur of the moment decision and then I called it off as my best friend was trying to rush me to the church on time. So that was weird. And I'm sure there's been more but I can't remember them.

Yesterday I bought "The Last Samuri" previously viewed for $10!!!! V. excited! I love expanding my movie collection. And tonight D is coming over for dinner and I have ribs in the slow cooker so it should be a lovely evening. I was 2 hours late for work today because my car wouldn't start - it is minus 35 degrees celcius here, and no, I don't know what that is in farenheight. So yeah, the cold sucks, but what are you going to do, this is the Canadian Prairies! At least we're not dealing with any natural disasters like....Tsunamis or Mudslides YIKES.

I can't really think of anything interesting to say except that tomorrow is casual Friday and I am VERY excited! Today I wore a black skirt a black turtle-neck and black boots with black tights - daring! And Lisa said that some of the sales guys were giving me the up and down - hmmm... funny how when you wear a skirt..... They are all a lot older than me and I think our values don't exactly meet in the middle If you know what I mean. But it doesn't matter because I am taken! FINALLY, I waited till I was 21 to EVER be able to say that.... OK enough gushing.

That is all I can think of.

Cheers!

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 18:21:36 GMT

So I met with 3 girls last night that I have had VERY minimal contact since junior high, but we were all the best of friends in junior high. It was a lot of fun actually. I semi-expected it to be really akward and scary since we don't really know each other very well anymore, but it was interesting to see that we are still the same people, just a little less amplified than when we were 14. One of them is getting married, one is graduating from University this year, one is going into med school, and than there's me.... the slacker? I don't know. I felt a little less successful than most of them, but I am ok with myself, I know my goals and my experience, so it's fine. I know what I want to do, and if anything, it's motivating to see people succeed and know I can do the same.

I am bored at work today, it is a slow day for me, for some reason. Yesterday I was busy most of the day, it makes the day go a lot faster. I am not feeling myself today, and I know why.

I have begun reading "Bram Soker's 'Dracula'" and am thoroughly enjoying it so far. It's very creepy! I like the old school horror of it, because it doesn't just use violence and gore to scare you, it's main choice of scare tactic is through description, which terrifies on a completely different level. To have the sensation of "trapped uncertainty" presented in such a way is delightfully horrifying to the imagination. Although, you'd think by age 21, that I would be able to read a scary book and not dream about vampires, but no such luck. Ah well, it is worth it. Yay for the classics!

Thursday, December 30, 2004

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 17:52:39 GMT

Boredom. My dilemma is that I was hungry early, so I ate my lunch, however I don't want that to be my lunch break, because I'd like to get out of the office for the hour of my lunch, normally this wouldn't be a problem because I would just work while I was eating and everyone would know that I was not actually ON my lunch break, but was just consuming said lunch. HOWEVER since I have been surfing the internet with nothing to do since about 9:00 AM this morning, it looks like I WAS on my lunch, when really I was just doing nothing because I have nothing to do. Are you cross-eyed yet? I am. Maybe I will be courageous and just take my hour anyway, it's nt like I'm being more productive if I stay, the phone has't rung in over an hour, so I think it should be fine. Depends if D comes for lunch today or not.

Well, I guess that concludes this oratorical masterpiece (I've just confirmed my title of Crazy-Word-Lady right Alyssa?)

Cheers!

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 18:13:24 GMT

So I am back at work, it is not very fun - but at least it is not busy and the boss is gone. Nobody would miss me if I didn't come back this afternoon - which is SO tempting - but I WILL resist since I need the money. Oh well, only today and tomorrow and then a four day weekend. YAY!

So I received a comment on my last entry stating that I was a "Jewish, ***** sniffing Troglodyte" Well, I didn't know what a troglodyte was, so I looked it up and it means "resembling a cave dweller" but I didn't quite understand where this outburst came from. I read over my last entry and I don't think I said anything remotely offensive, and though I have a small portion of Jewish heritage in my background I am not, by any means, a practicing Jew, so I would just like to thank said comment-leaver for their interest and subtlely request that they put more explanaition behind their comments in the future. However since I have subsequently blocked them and thus revoked their commenting prvilidges, this will be marginally impossible.

In other news, two of my close friends got engaged over Christmas very exciting!! I guess that's the age and stage I'm at now, friends getting married and having babies (not always in that order ) It's an adventure!

Had a WONDERFUL Christmas trip, spent some time with my parents. It was much needed, and very hard to leave them behind. We just talk about things, doesn't matter what, we just do. It's great I LOVE it. I had a bit of a hard time readjusting to the fact that I am once again responsible for my own well being, and that the real world does not consist of home cooked meals, no rent, movies in the middle of the day, and being chauffered wherever I please. Bummer.

Ah well, it's good for me you say? Then so be it. Happy New Year Everyone.

Sunday, December 26, 2004

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 06:55:54 GMT

Christmas was lovely, it is raining here, but I know there will be snow back in the big E. Today my mom and I cooked Christmas dinner for everyone, I was the Apprentice... it went pretty well! She even let me cook a spagetti squash! YUM~ Loves it. Spent lots of time with former roomates Ash and Mal and picked up a few phrases as always. Will be VERY sad to go home, but VERY happy to see D again. Missing in a big way. Tomorrow there is another family dinner with the other side of the family, but we don't have to cook, we are going to go out -YAY should be lovely. And yet another gift exchange! Can we say spoiled? I GOT A BACK MASSAGER!! For some reason D isn't nearly as excited as I am... hmm... why could this be? Anyway, V. tired after busy cooking filled day. Merry Christmas Everyone!

Thursday, December 23, 2004

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 06:23:42 GMT

Loving seeing the fam for Chrsitmas - missing D!!! Very tired, downloading music - YAY. Lots to say, but V. tired, so I'll talk more soon.

Happy Holidays!

Friday, December 10, 2004

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 20:33:57 GMT

I am SO tired. D asked me the other day how I bruised my eye, but in reality, it was just the tired smudges multiplied by about a billion. Maybe it's the season, but I can't remember being this exhausted in a long time. So excited for the weekend. And that's all I have to say today. Happy Weekend everyone!

Friday, December 03, 2004

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 19:20:49 GMT

Ok so my shopping bliss was actually me running around like a mad woman trying to find ONE thing to wear that didn't look like a string bikini, and finding out, that apparantely I am too large to wear a size 13 at some stores, where I can fit an eleven at others....(Visions of Bridget Jones run through my head) Now don't get me wrong, I have no problem saying that I am a curvy girl, but by NO means should I have to shop in the old lady plus section where all the clothes fall off me... Ok, rant finished. I finally found a cute skirt that I bought. But D is really sick, so he couldn't go shopping with me either - a fact for which I was very disspointed about, however, I did the good girlfriend things and brought him lunch before I went to do my shopping. The gig went pretty well considering I lost the book with all of our charts and it ended up getting recycled at the coffee shop and we went on a wild goose chase to find it, so we only had about 25 minutes to practice. But it went ok! And D even got out of bed to come see it - YAY!

Ok There's something I need to vent about. The other night D and I were walking in the mall and I saw a mother walking with her three children. She was agitated and when she got in earshop I heard her saying to her (approximately 9 year old son) "You don't open your F--ing mouth and say Sh-- like that!!" Now, I'm sorry but this just INFURIATED me! You do NOT speak to your little children like that! But what devastated me even more is that there was not a single thing I could do about it. I wanted to hug that little boy and tell him that he is worth SO much more than that, and that he was created by Someone who loves him SO much.

What would you have done? Would you have confronted her? (She was walking very fast) I wasn't brave enough.

But I am still seething!

Thursday, December 02, 2004

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 15:36:56 GMT

So today I only have to work half a day - WHOO HOO! Tonight Winnie and I have our Starbucks "gig" which I will be petrified for - but I'm ok now, so lets not ruin it. D and I are going shopping for Christmas wear for me this afternoon, and then Winnie is coming over so we can have a focused practice and get everything together. I was supposed to transpose all the songs last night - but I didn't because I couldn't find the book of charts - this is BAD. It better be the black hole that is my car or I'm screwed!

But on a happier note - I CLEANED! I did not go to meet my sign class *slaps wrist* but my dishes are all done (except for the few I used last night) and my living room and kitchen are vaccumed and it looks so great!!! (Ok I didn't get to my bedroom colony or the bathroom) but I succeeding in watching the "Rudof the Red-Nosed Reindeer Christmas Special" on CBC (one of the 3 channels that I get - It's Canadian for those of you who are like Wha...?) It was super. Also talked to my mom and dad and aunt all in the course of one phone call, which was lovely! I miss chatting with my mom - she always laughs at my jokes - what a great lady!!

So now I have 3 hours left of work for the day and then shopping bliss.... I need to find a Christmas dress for under $50 dollars - this is my goal for today. That, and not screwing up at the gig and embarassing Winnie and not deserving the money that they are paying! Well, I can't think of anything more interesting to say than this, so I suppose this will be all for now.

Cheers!